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Three years ago, the little butterfly on the cover of my 2nd book took flight.
EnVision YOU: UNstuck and Confident
I hadn’t planned on writing another book. Who am I kidding, I hadn’t planned on writing the first book (Lovely Traces of Hope) Being an author had never been on my bucket list.
I had that experience last week. Knocked me right off my feet for a while-actually it messed up my comfort zone. Suddenly I was discontent with everything about me- my business, my energy level, my opportunities, even my appearance.
Why? Why can I be blessed by another woman and her gifts and abilities and then struggle to find contentment with myself?
WHY does someone else’s success threaten mine?
Maybe it is because….
We all have those women in our life that might intimidate us. They seem to have it all together and we feel 'less than' somehow when we compare ourselves to them.
Come to find out - one lady that was my scary woman, actually told me I was hers. Oh my! I mean it is great that someone - anyone would think i have my act together.
But I know me. I know the real me - the messy me…
Kathy, put your hands back down! You're not done!"
That's the message I heard on Friday, September 13th, 2019. It was a time when I felt like IT - the launch of my new book, the doing the next thing, overcoming the next stuck place - was bigger than I was.
I was ready to throw my hands up and walk away.
What is your typical response when you feel STUCK?
The irony of this video is…
I am broken.
I don’t know if I ever truly felt broken before Leisha died.
I think perhaps in my pumping sunshine (Ren’s word for my positive outlook) way of looking at the world, I most often felt like whatever was wrong with the world God would find a way of making it right.
But since losing my child, I am very aware that God has not taken away the pain I have felt, nor would I want him too. It is part of the love relationship I had with my daughter. I miss her in my life because of my deep love for her.
Even if I will forever feel broken.
I'm flawed.
I take it back to Adam and Eve.
Here they were - the perfect couple in the perfect garden.
They had no baggage. They had no past life. They had no history that hurt them.
They were completely free of all of that.
And they still were flawed
