Lessons of Remarkable Abundance from Time with My Dad

I've been pondering the irony  
of my study of remarkable life, 
Abundant life
Man fully alive 

As I feel that i am coming alive again
After walking through grief 

 My dad, the preacher farmer

My dad, the preacher farmer

As I now walk with my parents  
Through struggle to live
after Dad's heart attack

And breathe 

And eat & drink  

And walk 

It's like being born again
In a new way
All over again 

Is this the end  

Or a beginning 

A new baby - my grand niece Collins Lynae
Was born just weeks ago
There was an end to the time she spent
Nurtured and cared for in the womb
Of her mommy Chelsi

But the end 

Birthed a beginning 

Dad is at an end
Of life, yes at age 83 nearing an end
And yet not the end of living 

So a beginning
Of a new way of living
Once again
Learning to breathe
And drink
And eat
And walk 

As if for the first time 

And what is ahead? 

Wrestling
Striving
Depending
Trusting
Loving
enjoying
Hoping
Praying
Letting go
Releasing
Grieving
Fighting
Laughing
Crying ...

But isn't that what life has been
Through 83 years
All of those things and more 

Being born
Growing up the youngest of 12
Decisions about life
   Education
   Marriage
   Jobs
   Parenting
   Ministry
 

Wrestling  

Striving 

Depending 

Trusting ... 

Sure the dreams have changed
What was once
Dreams for a future
Or a child
Or a church
Are now lived out 

Perhaps those dreams
Became reality
all we imagined and more 

Or perhaps they were tweaked
We reached for the moon
And landed in the stars

Or perhaps they were dashed
Dreams no more 

Maybe now at 83 it feels there are  
No more dreams
No more strength
No more desire
Dreams are dying 

Yet he lives
We live

Wrestling
Striving
Depending
Trusting
Loving
enjoying
Hoping
Praying
Letting go
Releasing
Grieving
Fighting
Laughing
Crying ...

Somewhere in the middle of all that Is abundance 

  • Husband & wife loving one other In intimate, sacrificial  ways 
  • Children caring for parents and each other
  • Grandchildren showing up  
  • Neighbors caring for neighbors 
  • Their sisters and brother, nieces and nephews offering prayers 
  • Skilled professionals serving in such personal ways
 My Dad and Mom, the day my dad came home from the hospital

My Dad and Mom, the day my dad came home from the hospital

Love. 

Joy. 

Life. 

Abundance! 

Lord, help me embrace  
The "being born" times
As well as the dying 

As a newborn
As a child
As a daughter 


My time with my dad has reminded me
That life
At all stages
Is both
the good and the bad,
the happy the sad,
the easy and the hard,
the pretty and the ugly

And in all that is Abundance!